not the perfect soul

2009-07-17T02:05:00.000+08:00

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2009-07-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

White lies.
It neither exist in my religion nor my dictionary.
It's still a lie. I made a mistake.

Frankly speaking, I dont really mind facing tha music.
I would bear all tha consequences as I'm tha one who started it at tha first place. I was tha one who overslept at Farhana's crib but I seriously do have tha intention to go to skol. I even re-set my alarm. You dont even have a clue on wht is taking place in my life yet you commented me.
You dont have tha right to tell tha rest about it, you dont have tha right to judge me before knowing tha truth& obviously, you dont have tha right to insult me& my family members.

'Eur mother is still sleeping at this hour?'
'I accompanied my mother to tha doctor after school even though she's having high blood pressure'
'Let eur Cikgu to talk to eur mother so tt she'll understands.'

I can't be tt unfortunate organism to let one mishap befalling me after tha other. No, I cant. I wont let this obstacles affect my preparations fo O's. Yes, I maybe using my O's as an excuse but you people dontknow wht I have gone through fo these past 16 years. People come& go. I have no one to rely on but myself&tt includes my very own flesh& blood.
Plse, pray hard fo me tt things would be better& tt it wont get much more sway-er(:

2009-07-15T17:43:00.004+08:00

Things are so bad fo her.
Tt boy which she is trying to get over with, is in tha same skol with her. Dunk.
I'll pray tt things will go smoothly fo you.
Rumours, pls stop.

When someone made a promise to you before you closed eur eyes& let eur dreams come true, tha first thing you'll think of when you open eur eyes is tha promise which tt particular someone has made.
Wht if tt someone did not stick to it, wht will you do?
&when you thought tt you'll be able to rely on tt particular someone when things fall apart, she/he'll priorities sleep, friends over you.

It was such a horrible, miserable day to start tha week off where evrything does not fall in place& tt annoying teacher of eurs would come to eur table& tell you off &during lunch time, one of eur friend's bowl toppled over. I am trying my best to work hard fo my upcoming O's which is in a few mnths time. I seriously do not need eur criticism.
Fvck Off You Bitch.

Headache is killing me. It's pulling on my veins, assholes. 2 days leave.
Yes, I need tt days to replenish. Hahaha.

Goodbye.

2009-07-08T18:38:00.003+08:00

See boy above.
This particular boy is snapping pictures of Sasa grls who only had some-sort-like-bras over them. He really have tt determination to kneel down& zoom in on you-know-wht part. Then, snap-snap. I salute him, Itellyou. Cool siaa. I meant he do not have tt embarrassment to stop from wht he enjoys to do. Geesh.
This significant organism on earth(:

I dont get so worked up whenever I argued with you.
But plse, I do need respect.
&d'ya think by texting me with stupidity, I would be replying to eur text?

2009-07-07T16:45:00.006+08:00

Dear Nurfidiana Binte Ramlan,
Happy 17th Birthday Blurish Slut.
May Allah bless you with a fruitful life.
&and, eur rainbow-ish dreams would come true, wee!(:
Ahh, dont sombong-sombong kay since you all 17. Haha.
'cos, well. You dont act like one
:DD

All I want most is fo us to spent quality time together.
Whr we used to argue a lot on how pretty tt minah is or how handsome tt mat-rep is without having any hard feelings. Or whr we would spent our summer at tha most romantic, ideal place. We would be laughing our asses out without giving any attention to tha surroundings& tears would be streaming down at tha middle of tha night not because of disappointment, sadness but because of too much laughter, whr we would be finding our doors been knocked by those kaypo neighbours and we would keep shut whenever tt happens. Yes, tt's how things go. You would always always go fo tt extra mile to make me smile like a 3 year old kid who had received a gigantic, colourful lollipop. Tt particular chemistry seems to drift away.
Selfish, perhaps I am.
Idontlike you.

BALQYS& SYAHEED,
Happy 1 year anniversary hor!
Dont gaduh-gaduh ahh, shawts
:DD

2009-07-01T22:58:00.004+08:00

It's rather frustrating, annoying to get to know tha dates of tha exams at tha very last minute. Thr's not much time to polish eur areas whr you knew you had problems with, setting eur playful, mischievous mindset to a serious one. It's unfair. Yes, life's unfair. &by having a GCEO Malay Oral tomorrow did not let me have tha opputunity to escape from those mountainous homeworks.

While I was working on it, I suddenly lose interest in my most favourable subject, accounts. I dont feel like solving it. Idontknow whether it's due to tha holidays, too many things on my mind or thr's too little time &where you would find eur heart beats ridiculously fast, hoping tt time will go a little slower, allowing you to take in a deep breath slowly& wondering wht will this path will lead you to. I dont want to fail, no. Not right now. 'cos this determined my future. &when this screwed up, I can totally forget about taking accounts fo my course. &obviously I can foget about being an accountant.

I am supposed to be in bed right now. I hope with this few hours of sleep I may be able to pull through tomorow. Plse pray fo me tt tha text wont be difficult to tha extend 'cos my tongue will tend to tangle& I also have problems in putting my sentences in good Malay. I really need to clean up my room so tt I can have a more peaceful environment to study. With this gemok, irratating sister, no. Studying would me imposibble. &while tha people whom you have high hopes on are not being supportive at this very moment when you feel at eur lowest.

So, plse. Pray hard fo me.
I really hope these tears would just stop.

2009-07-01T17:20:00.013+08:00

Cellphone went Cleopatra Station fo 10 seconds then, Remix fo another 7 seconds.
There would be this moment when you dont feel like talking to anybody 'cos you felt tt they wont& never understand you. &by talking to them would make tha situation feel more worse. This very moment when you put on tt unglamorous face& dont bother to look good despite tha very fact you looked like a 97 year old psycho with hair all over eur face& clothes were not being worn properly down tha streets. This moment when even eur favourite waffle with delicious, colourful ice-creams on tha top wont make you eat. You would gave everyone tt deadly stare.
Yes, I'm feeling tt way now.

GCEO Malay Oral tomorow.

*[I just wish tt time would go a little slower.]

CASH.

Yes, I desperately need tt now.
I'm pressurize.

yok, SHOP!

2009-06-30T17:35:00.011+08:00

As promised, photos fo tha Sentosa Beach Party.

&and, St. James was a disappointment to me ah. Tha songs only got better at 2+, haiyo. Shook my booties off baby. Hahahahaha. Fcuk ahh. Cina-beng dont& will never allow me to go to those places ready. But, but he promised me to bring to Ah Jie's pub. Then can play (5,10) Heheh, will sneak to such events like tt. I cant possibly not go.

Skol start ready leh. Tons of homeworks which I have not completed yet. It's not tt I dont want to do but too busy to do. No time. I have to start working on it& stop being so disorganise. Too much hanging out with tha disorganise people like Balqys, Dinika& Fidiana. See ah wht happen. Hahahahahahahaha

&not to remind me, GCE 'O' Malay Oral two days away! Hahahahaha. Totally so not ready.
Ehh, wish me luck hor

2009-06-24T04:19:00.006+08:00

Time Check: 4.32 am.

LOVE.

Define love. " A profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person"
It's complicated. I dont mean tha love who you felt fo eur friends, families but more of a love fo tha other sex. Tha love tt would make you see stars, which involves deep kisses& such.
Fact: It does hurt you in some way or another& it also makes eur life more beautiful& meaningful.

Idontthink I'll need it. Esp when I have issues with boys.
&plse, keep tt sweet-candy talks to eurself.
It's over.

2009-06-22T22:45:00.003+08:00

Tha Sentosa Beach Party didnt turn out like wht I've expected after looking forward to it fo weeks. I meant it's a beach party. It would be so happening larr. Ahh, tha tracks tht were being played really sucks, Imustsay. It only, only got better when Sheikh Haikel performed. I tght it was supposingly to be more like loose& things. Not jumping arnd. Hahahaha.

&ohhmmyy, *tt mat-rep caught my attention with his dance moves despite tha very fact his minah-rep grlf was right beside him*
Charged guilty.
**Cina-beng dont be angry with me hor. Hahahahahahahahaha

Pictures will be uploaded when, when tt Sella, creams with cherry on top who is so slenge kept misplacing her cellphone& Olympus camera send it to me(:

2009-06-20T00:02:00.004+08:00

Idontknow, I'm confused.

I really feel like slapping my face real hard.

I hope I'll be happy tomorow& not be guilty like hell(:

2009-06-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry.
I dont understand why things does'nt turn out like wht we planned these few days.
&again, I assumed.
Assumption is tha least knowledge you can ever gain.
Still, I have to live up to this saying,

-Sometimes, it's better fo things not to turn out tha way you expected it to be.

But wht happens when you hurt somebody/someone when things does'nt work out?

Sixteen ♥

2009-06-19T13:44:00.015+08:00

It's been sixteen years ey.
Sixteen years since I last saw/remember you.
&boy, you never appear.

Sentosa Beach Party tomorrow with these sexy, beautiful grls above.
Woo, yeah! It's been like ages larr since I saw them. Hahaha.
&god, Imissyou grls like how I missed my pillow suk(:
&Stripper, you have a lot to tell me.

Adorable, sotong Surya& her sweetest family made a birthday surprise fo me.
It was so unexpected ahh, tght go thr makan-makan only. Teehee.
But it turned out otherwise.
Many makan, I tell you. Sedap.
Then hor, Surya again got bashed by tha cake(:
Not me leh:D

I suck. You suck.
It's been 10 mnths, iloveyou.
You know tt kan kan, albeit I didnt& want to show it, hee.
Thankyou Cina-beng fo tolerating my nonsense& harshness.
&Obviously, I'm difficult to handle, love.

-For when it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
Judy Garland

2009-06-12T21:05:00.011+08:00

Rabbit! Rabbit!

Cina-beng being sssoo sweet(not always, ya'know. Haha) pasted our nonsensical, ugly photos on his new bedroom wall& decorated it in a love. &fo once, I trusted him in piercing my eyebrow. Scared leh. Later he anyhow hor, blind sia. Hahahahaha.

He, who notice my very visible flaws(teeth) and saw them as uniqueness:DD

2009-06-10T15:54:00.004+08:00

Blog being stupid.
Somehow, I wont be able to upload my photos.

I will complete my malay worksheet if not lazy.
I will visit tha e-learning website if not lazy.
I will text Salihin, Cina-beng if not lazy.
I will kemas if not lazy.
Oh, seriously. I feel like slapping myself. But I'm too lazy to do tt.

Okay, bye. I want to sleep.

2009-06-10T01:49:00.012+08:00

Boy's most glamorous pose(:

Must be St. John Island, I guess.

So-called tha traffic light on tha sea.

Chinese Temple in tha middle of nowhere?

Family Outing, Cruising Dad's Boat.

Tha love of a family is life's greatest blessing.
-Anonymous

2009-06-08T14:33:00.000+08:00

7th was supposingly to be spent at St. James with tha rest of tha Ah-lians. Hahaha.
Thanks to you, ML.
Dearest, asses Angel was forbidden to go due to tha very comments you gave her.
&thanks to you,
I canceled my plans which I was looking forward to.
You sickening, freaken-ing dunk-head who has no life& who only lives just to ohh-my ruin people's life.

So, Great Singapore Sale at Expo with Blurish Slut.
Chua Chu Kang Park to makan dinner. Delectable dishes, Imustsay(:
Cool oi. Train Service finish ready leh. Cabbed home.
Ehh, mama. In total, you owed me 30 bucks hor.

-Blurish Slut
-Chocolate Cupcake
-Creams with Cherry-on-top
-Stripper
-Kanchong Spidder

I'll miss you people banyk-banyk, sht asses. June Holidays aye, enjoy ah kay.
&don't forget to study hor. Must pandai-pandai leh.
Oi! 20th June, remember ehh.

Love-love,
Cina-lian

Psst. Click HERE fo hilarious, Noboby's video(:

2009-06-02T18:37:00.000+08:00

- 7th to St. James.
- 16th shop with Cinesesat.
- 17th to Surya's crib.
- 2oth to Sentosa, Kotex Beach Party

I'm done setting tha dates to revise with Chaqif& Fidiana.

I cancelled my plans on going to Malaysia to makan durian.
15th shop with Fidiana, &tt includes those thrift shop& makan-makan(:
- Salihin leh?
- Nadia?

2009-05-31T09:50:00.000+08:00

I love you, cinesesat.

xoxo

2009-05-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

I'm sick. I just vomited.

I hope it's not Swine Flu 'cos tt would make me equivalent to bestf, Salihin.
Hahahahahahahahahahaha
xD

&not to remind me, Malay's GCEO paper is four days away, god

2009-05-24T13:03:00.000+08:00

Dear blurish slut,

You have always been tha strongest one among us. You have been through a lot& I know you would be able to pass through this phase as soon as you knew it. Time, as per usual, would pass fast, that it will all be over soon. Once it is all over, we can enjoy our old days together again. We can makan-makan& laugh like crazy. I hope our friendship will pull you through this phase& you'll be a stronger and a better individual(:

So pls, tak mo give up easily. I know you. Especially eur O's. I'm always here, ya know

-With love,
Cina-lian♥

2009-05-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

-You happen to treasure/appreciate someone when you'd lose tt particular someone.

Tt you doesn't apply to you alone but to almost evryone.
Idontlike it

2009-05-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

Cina-lian : Fidiana! Dress aku basah!

Muke, kurang kasih sayang:(

Fidiana pushed tha time to 15 mins.

Marina Barrage. We were really lucky fo today, like fo tha first time. 'Cos usually, Fidiana& I would get lost somewhr, somehow due to tha very experienced tour-guide larr kan. Fidiana, you know wht I mean.

Bishan pizza hut to have our lunch. She, being tha blurish slut, dropped a grain of curry sazzle baked rice& her fork. Tuhh ah. Karma. Pretend to have table etiquette lagi.

Bugis to shop fo my pumps initially but ended up buying my shawts which costs 18 bucks.
Raffles Hospital to have our dinner. &thr's this typical malay boy who caught my eye, surprisingly by askn his grlf to buy his food& drinks fo him while he sat thr, goyang kaki. Siak-nye jantan. Haiyo

2009-05-15T23:32:00.001+08:00

13TH MAY 'O9
Ah boy ah.
Come home now leh.
I'm damn dead bored.
Layan me ah kay.
Malik muke sposen 'cos tak dapat makan durian ice kacang. Boy, eur are suppose not to be in tha picture ah kay. Mah-tha is trying to act sexy. Hahahahaha. Most of tha pictures above are taken when I'm so not ready ah. Macam deng tuhh photographer, thanks ah Seri(:
15TH MAY 'O9
Cancel plans with both Salihin& grlfs. Headed to Mustafa Centre, Lavender& Arab Street. Shop fo most of my things at MC. Walk all tha way to Lavender fo Daddy's fishing things ah. Seri joined us. Makan, shopping at Arab Street. Bought this leather bag which originally cost 85 bucks& I got it fo 3o bucks. Luck?
Okay, nak tdo.
16TH MAY 'O9
Marina Barrage with blurish slut((:

2009-05-13T17:35:00.000+08:00

OKAY, I'LL STOP

Saturday's plan cancel. Perhaps, Salihin.

Idontlike it when people change. (Who does? Fo tha exception if they change fo tha better) Especially when it comes to you. Eur tha person I have high expectations on. Nevertheless, you did this to me. Without giving a thought on wht tha outcome might be. Not even giving a sht fo my feelings. Yes, perhaps, I may be too demanding. But you, eur attitude started to degenerate day by day. So please stop assuming& god, be nice

2009-05-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

Okay. I'm not mad at you fo having eur thoughts penned down. I meant each& evry human being have their own feelings, perceptions too. I love you fo tha way you are& not who you can be fo me. &so I would be ecstatic if you would happen to regard me as eur friend(: True bestfs should not necessary always be together. Thr are some who are right close beside you but never had tha intention to regard you as one. I'm so sorry if I had not been a great help when you were having eur downs& troubles. Tha fact is, I'm unable to help unless you tell me.

&I'm usually tha last one to know on evrything& anything, I don't really mind though. Cos in my very eyes, I dont belong to eur clan anymore. Things change. I refrain from having too much hang-outs with you as I want to save myself from those misunderstandings, gossips& such.

Dear friend, dont do things just because jealousy aroused in you. Tha things you'd do would have effect in eur current affairs, as per now. Now, eur miserable& such. &do stop doing things continuously in eur way. It's not tt obvious though but people would notice it sooner or later. Time tells evrything. You may lose eur one& only true bestf if you stick with tt attitude of eurs. I'm sorry if I'm being too harsh but fyi, eur friends are worried about you. &wht do they received in return was eur actions, adding up to their pain

Bee-yott-chess

2009-05-09T20:22:00.001+08:00

Meeting up wont be such a good idea anymore. Things would happen. I'm not bothered.

Head to Bukit Merah MacD's to have our breakfast. Fidiana left. Next to Queensway, Anchorpoint& Ikea with Dilia, Balqys, Sella, Hashim. Zaoffrey met us at Ikea. Sella's place to slack. ABC market to have our lunch. Hashim, eur such a pain in my arss. Hahahahahaha.
'Aku tak tao ah kao ni Minah ke Ah-lian' claimed by Hashim. Nonsense.
Salihin = dunk-head.
I totally, seriously missed those times manx, bee-yott-chess.

2009-05-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Spent some quality time with non other than my bitchy mama. Bought so-called my ideal cellphone at Clementi. &gosh, tha weather was incredibly warm. I was still perspiring despite tha very fact tt I was wearing a short dress. Next, head to Jurong Point to top up tha wht-meter-thing ah. Our initial plan was to get thr& makan. Thanks to tha sweet, sour scents tt made my head dizzy, no. I have to makan at other place, IMM. Mama was such a bitch, I tell you. Like mother like daughter(said by Fidiana). We kept throwing vulgarities all over tha place ah& criticise to those who stared at us. Oh dear, wht a mom. Such coincidence, got pasar malam thr. Penat leh.

Oh, Happy Birthday ah anak Rubahil(:
Sombong, I texted you tak reply seyx.

&when I thought evrything would go on smoothly. Mama left leaving me a packet of Hainanese Chicken Rice. Electricity went dead. Kakita went off to work leaving us, Seri& I to clean up tha mess Malik made. Bedroom's locked. Key to tha electricity is in thr. Just god. Daddy's home between 8 to 9. Texted Mama to go home as soon as possible. He brought home makan. Accused me of collaborating with mama with tt index finger of his. Said 'korangnye pasal ah nak buat ape. I'm going out.' Hand out to Seri some cash& left me with those 2 kids& siblings. Makan while tears streaming down my face in front of my siblings. *Reputation dropped. Mama's back home now. She's such in a bad shape. Daddy, you should never have said tt, ya know. Sorry dearest, adorable, gemok Mama. I wont be much help. Thankyou sweetest true bestfriend, Salihin fo those words of eurs.

Your such an ass these days. You would know tt when I have started talking my craps, I need to take things off my mind. &you being so egocentric, buat bodoh me. Moreover, you wanted to change eur job to a 12 hour which needs you to only packed stuffs. So typical of you-know. Dont bother kay. Just dont. Eur not being there when I'm having my troubles. Instead, you run away.
I'll keep this in mind, You wrong also I have to said right. Not your maid okay.
You just dont understand& never will cos you, my girl has never put in effort in me

Please

2009-04-30T19:32:00.000+08:00

You know me. To be precise, I'm a stubborn bitch. I wont be apologising to you albeit it maybe my fault. Note tha word maybe. I'm not those usual grls who would be apologising after realising their mistakes or perhaps found their boyf not taking to them. I'm sorry for not being in tt particular group. I dislike apologising to boys. You know tt, dont you. &as a result, please dont say sorry when you dont mean it. Dont say sorry just because you sympathise me. I dont need it. Tha cycle will go& on non-stop. Say sorry when you really really mean it& would try eur very best not to repeat it.

Blogging serves as a journal, a place where emotions are expressed out. Therefore, I'm not bothered to tt particular of group of grls who would passed unnecessary comments and remarks.

English, MYE

2009-04-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

Composition : A definite fail
Letter Writing : Mediocre
Comprehension : Fail

I somehow can't get into tha mood of doing my composition. Anger, tt was tha topic. I wont be surprise if I had to flung my Mid-Year results. I'm mentally prepared fo it. I dont wish to go any longer with it. Geesh.

Had lunch with tt blurish slut of mine, Fidiana at Long John Silver. We were best at gossipings and unintentionally, shared secrets tt we never dared confess to any souls(x

Cellphone:DD

2009-04-29T20:53:00.000+08:00

Daddy promised me to buy my so-called ideal cellphone next week. I still prefer tha colour brown though. Gah. Like cool ah. It seemed like ages ah since I last got hold of my cellphone. &I'm going to shop for either palms or slippers and most probably a Ripcurl bag with Cina-beng on tha 16 of May. Woo ~ I'm going to got hold of things sooner or later.
I'm craving for bags right now.
Cina-beng is in-charge of my make-ups now. I'll spent my money on him while he spent his money on me on tha next shopping spree. Haha.
Therefore, I'm not perturbed by tha financial problems& I'm really blessed by it.

Subway, eat fresh

2009-04-29T18:45:00.000+08:00

Had lunch with those retarded bitches which includes Angel, Foong Sze, Hui Ling& Joanne at Subway. I'm not pretty sure on whether it's halal or not. (Emphasize on tha word pretty ah Angel& Hui Ling) Tawakal jer larr kan. Haha. Mp ah. Headed to Popular as Joanne wanted to buy her pen's refiller.
Angel had some problems with her sweet tt she bought moments ago. She usually have problems with her food, I'm not surprised. She does really care on wht she puts in her mouth albeit she's such a sotong! Her sweet had expired. It was supposingly to be purple in colour as it was grape flavour but it was black in colour ah. She approached tha lady at tha counter. Kecoh-rable man. Tha lady called tha manager& she had to remove those 2 boxes which consists of tha grape flavour.
Ah. I'm drained out of energy larr. Headed home.
3O APRIL 2OO9 : ENGLISH PAPER 1& 2
Good night. Time for revision. Before tt, mandi.

update!

2009-04-24T19:27:00.000+08:00

I love my Fridays as it marks the end of tha week. In addition to that, I'm full of energy despite tha very fact that I'm still not fully recovered. I would be laughing my heart out with my girls which mostly includes Fidiana, Angel, Balqys, Dilia, Sella, Dinika, Amira& such. Haha. And I wont hesitate talking loudly which is actually close to screaming to my girls. I dont understand why but Fridays seemed a total difference. On other days, I would mostly drag my legs to school and I'll be coughing around. God!

Dilia claimed tt I had suffered from brain damage as I was like screaming, laughing& emotionally hurt at tha same time. "Ehk, thanks ah kay for both accusing and pulling my strap till it came off tha hook." Eur such a bitch, cupcake. Haha. Anwy, I must thank Balqys for actually helping me with tt:DD

TAG TIME!

1. Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
; Hair! (Urh, shutup girls)

2. How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
; Wah. I'm still sick sia

3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
; &tt would be a long time ago. Should be Cina-beng ah

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoilt?
; Totally no

5. Would you ever donate blood?
; Perhaps, like cool ah

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
; Salihin!

7. Do you want someone dead?
; No! No! No!

8. What does your last text message say?
; I'll text you when I'm done

9.What are you thinking of right now?
; Mid-year

10. Do you wish someone was with you right now?
; Haha. Obviously

11. What time did you go to sleep last night?
; 1o plus

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
; I'm still in my uniform larr

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
; Ah-ah

14. Who was the last person to text you?
; Cina-beng

15. 10 people tagged to do this quiz:

; Azza
; Aubrey
; Fally
; Ira
; Indah
; Nadia
; Rena
; Azhar
; Deelarhs
; Angel

16. Who is 2 having a relationship with?
; Idontknow

17. Is 3 a male or a female?
; Female

18. If 7 and 10 get together will that be a good thing?
; I think both would commit suicide. Hahahaha

19. What is Number 1 studying about?
; I'm not tt sure

20. Is Number 4 single?
; NO!

21. Say something about Number 2?
; He's such an ass. *Joke

22. What do you think about Number 3 and 6 being together?
; Nah. Tt wont do

23. Describe Number 9
; Shes hot& stubborn

24. What will you do if Number 6 and 7 fight?
; No larr. Tt wont happen

25. Do you like Number 8?
; Wht's not to like kan? kan? Azhar. Haha

Sentosa, 25 April 2oo9

2009-04-15T19:40:00.001+08:00

SICK
I was back, laying on tha bed fo tha whole day forcing all sorts of medication down my throat. My fever was higher than tha previous one accompanied with cough& flu. But tha most miracle thing happen was that I can walk! Hahahahahah. I know it sounded rather stupid to be so sexcited over tha very fact I can walk. Well, I should be. I can't do that at my very first sickness. Geesh. Such a chore, Imustsay. I've been sick fo like 3 weeks now. Anwy, I went to my favorable doctor. *Smile slyly. He asked my mama not to give me too much food as he's afraid I would throw everything up. My mama claimed she's aware of that. He also says that I look like a bird!! I lose a lot of weight. Like seriously, seriously.
Can I get well soon?

Aaahhhhhh, malas

2009-04-08T14:32:00.000+08:00

Hahahahahhahahahaha

I know its a mess. Ahh, malas nak lawa2 ah kay. So anwy, I've yet to recover. Therefore, I cabbed my way home these few days macam orraannggg kkaaayyyaaa. Hahahahahha. No larr. Tha main&utmost reason is tt I'm afraid I would pass out or *imagine-tha-worst when I would usually walked my way to tha Bukit Merah Interchange. Not to remind me tt tha weather is not suitable fo my state right now. I may get through it but not fo long. Take fo an example, where I would my walk my way from tha skol bus, which is directly in front of my skol, to tha parade square. My legs would turn into jelly-like& my head begun to spin. Urh.

Ooouhhh. Tha bus driver made my hot head blew up yesterday morning. He was supposingly to dropped all tha passengers off before parking his bus at tha lot. Being tha one&only left in tha bus. He forgot to alight me. Straight, he went to tha parking lot. Dart him! Pressed tha bell. &he went"ouh-ouh" Knnbcb! Stomped down tha bus& made my way to tha interchange. Everyone& tt includes tha drivers& Outramist stare me in curiosity. Bitch. I had neither tha time nor tha energy to play those staring games or explaining to be done. Thank god. 851 was in sight(:

READ TT

2009-04-05T10:06:00.000+08:00

I'M NOT TALKING TO YOU

I dont know why were you so upset yesterday over tha phone, grl. I supposed you were having eur mens. I sent tt particular text you asked for with full of sincerity, love& care. You accused me of being insincere. You dont even give face to a sick grl man. It was so over tha limit. &btw, I dont want you to apologise& repeat all over eur mistake. No, tt is not needed. Unless you know how to treat, communicate, respect me : you may talk to me.

GOODBYE.

I'm really sick

2009-04-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

I really missed those times where i could laugh, run, walk or whtever you can think of healthily. Now, I could only lay in bed, taking all sorts of medicines. Trying my best to feel better. *Cheeks turn red& tears started to well up.
*****************************************************************************
Scenario.

Mrs A had four children. She had two sons among them. Mrs B had none. Tha youngest son of all was under tha foster care of Mrs B. Tha foster care here means to care or cherish. Tha family of Mrs A was kind enough to let Mrs B cherish him as they want them to feel tha undescrible felling of bringing up one. Let me remind you tt tha son was still a baby. Both couple of family A did gave them their share.

When tha family of B wanted to move out. Obviously, Mrs A had tha right to take her son back. But no, Mrs B refused to give in. Fcuk. Mr B claimed fo his money back if Mrs A wanted her son bck. Tt particular money he claimed bck was used to repaired his motorbike, Mr A helped him with tt. Mrs A failed to get wht is rightfully hers.

Many years passed by. One unfortunate, rainy day, came a knocking from Mrs B on Mrs A door. Tha eldest daughter was all alone at home. She refused to open tha door to a woman who had separated a mother form a son. Who had no shamed to claim those thousands of dollars. Nevertheless, those money were used on eur motorbike. Mr A did not gain any profit. Who made tha son believed tha lies& did not want to meet his own mother. Who is afraid of his very own mother. You claimed you want to bring up tha child. But wht have you done? Tt very son now is in foundation, unlike his siblings whose in express/standard or normal academic. Geesh.

If you were tha eldest daughter, wld you open up tha door?

grls, read this.

2009-03-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

People sometimes called me names. I try to keep a positive mind; like people usually says but deep inside, I always , always can't love myself for who i really am. I don't have the prettiest face. I'm not adorable either. &I don't own the best of everything.

&my, life is not about being perfect. It is not about having the best of everything. It's being content with what you have and start loving yourself for who you truly are. Stop caring so much about the critiques people just have to say, cause they are nothing but mere people too. They don't have the best of everything either.

Girls don't have to wear skimpy clothes to appeal to people. People don't have to be beautiful to be happy. I don't have the prettiest face, or the perfect fashion sense to be loved and to love in return. Even though, theres this point of time, I think its true. &I also cant denied tt grls are actually very very vulnerable. I bet tt even grls who appear to be strong outside do have their vulnerable times.

It finally dawned on me that happiness doent based on one's appearance. Trying to be skinny,don't make a person happier. Trying to be somebody you are not, will never make you happy. I don't care if there are people who don't like me, detest me or perhaps, can't even stand the sight of me, cause as long as the people i love stays and stand by me till i take my last breath, i will be contented enough. Every girls have their own beautiness/uniqueness& ugliness. In fact, those drop-dead gorgeous tries their best to hide their flaws/ugliness. &usually, theirs are much more worse than ours. Thus, appreaciate wht you've got.

Therefore, to every one, all you people out there, have some confidence in yourself.You should love yourself before you can love any one else. Honestly, there's times when I'm being over self-conscious. I am not perfect, i have many flaws that i know is visible.

Hahahahahahhahahahahah. I realised i macam-paham. But i felt like penning these down. I am also trying to apply this to myself. *flips hair. I pulled all my hair up into a ponytail when I go to skol. I looked ridiculous& so? Geesshh.

Angel is suspected to suffered from dengue. Oohh-mmm-gggg. Let's pray for our beloved friend here.
Dear Allah swt.
Please protect my dear friend.
Jauhkan larr die dari penyakit-penyakit tersebut.
Amin.

rules

2009-03-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Be down at 9& bck home no ltr than 12.45.
I dont want you to lose eur freedom/friends. If you were to be in tha wrong company, I am to be blame.&no, I dont want to lose you to crimes. &obviously, i dont want you to be like a bird in a cage, boy. He'd be tha one with all tha freedom chilling at 4th floor with his closest beloved friends. Talking shts. Laughing their asses off. Grls wld dream of getting in his arms. But no, he's attached to this psyhco, bitch((: Trust, tt is. He has a job, class/standard& an attitude which grls long fo. Wht more can I ask fo? Yes, eur my perfect cinesesat boyf.
ILOVEYOU

p/s Thrs an underage party at chinatown tomorow. Angel asked me out. No, i dont want to disappoint boyf

MATIN MUIS

2009-03-20T19:01:00.001+08:00

Matin is so hilarious. He kept jumping& posed with tha sarong all wrapped arnd him. Mom, brother& i were laughing our asses off. He's such an entertainer((: His parents shld appreaciate fo giving birth to a smart, belo& cute child like him rather than throwing him arnd:/

boyf

2009-03-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

I like both of our display picture.
Boyf came over to my place with his cooking's(: * two thumbs up.
Talk. Laugh. Shit. Cry.
He went home at 6 in tha morning. &i did'nt received any textes from him till now.
BITCHHEAD

7 mnthsary

2009-03-18T12:01:00.000+08:00

7 mnthsary was spent in a different way, imustsay. Slack at boyf's area with syukor&his ttm, laila (apologise fo tha wrong spelling, if any) after accompanying them to coffee bean's interview. I was much disappointed when boyf wanted to play soccer. I was like wht tha hell ah, today wht day sia you want to play soccer/takhraw. Moreover, i was'nt used to this plan as we usually go somewhr to spent our mnthsary. Rascal joined us& we headed to people's park complex to have our dinner. Next to riverside. There, he treated us to a can of baron& recount those times when he was back with his ex. I like tha experience he went through as i believed tt bad experiences would make us a much more stronger person. Syukor was being such a nonsensical. He kept calling me names, like 'bdk2' like tt. Sorry, no offence. Overall, tha day spent was okkay. It was a change of environment. I still feel sad though.

The End

2009-03-13T19:21:00.000+08:00

Cellphone is down. I wont be able to make any calls frm now on as tha other party would not be able to hear wht am i saying. I still dont feel well& tha weather was quite bad fo these few days. Thus, i'm getting worse. I need sufficient rest. Forgive me as i had repeatedly not going to eur house. Since you have asked me not to come up to eur house ever again, it's fine with me. It's eur property not mine. Again, i called you. You have'nt been doing tha calls lately. &yes, not coming down to my area. oh pls. you dont even know how long i spent over at tha computer to change tt particular background& you easily want to chane it. Not to remind you, grls taste are different from boys. &due to tt. You said this. Fuck off was tha word you used it on me. I was overwhelmed. Cool (!!) Oh well, this is all i have to say. Thank you fo all tha sacrifice you have made fo me fo these past 6/7 mnths. I sincerely apologised fo all tha troubles& mistakes i've made. You may erase all tha memories we had together, tt includes, pictures& number.
May you had a wonderful life ahead(:

Muchlove,
JURIANI

thank you, like totally

2009-03-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

this random chinese guy was like so nice ah. my attention was drawn to him as he woke tha primary skol boy who was still sleeping with his unfinished drawing even though tha bus had reached tha interchange. initially i wanted to wake tt particular boy up. i change my mind upon turning behind as thr's actually someone behind me. i dont really like doing good deeds when someone is thr. i somehow dont like tha feeling tt wld arise in me.
stop apologising when eur not sincere& wld repeat eur mistakes all over again. you broke well, almost all of eur prmises. &somehow, you wld vent eur anger on me. i called you to make up& made you realise eur mistakes. but ey, you wont be able to accept it& grew all pissed off. slam down tha phone. sorry, but if you gg to keep on with eur attitude. i dont think i wld be able to put up with all these. i've got things to do, boy. like my o levels& etc. &pls, i wont be menggatal-ing at a pub/club. tt wld be like totally no standard. i've got you now. others are mere friends. i love you not for money& material stuffs. iloveyou fo tha way you are. &you claimed tt you have eur own grls& you may menggatael with them anytime. nice one.
challenges are part of life& made us stronger((:

to whom it may concerns

2009-03-09T17:39:00.000+08:00

((:
tha heat rashes was getting better& better, i think, which i wish so. skol was quite slack fo today. we didnt have much to do. so yeah.
fo you.
you shld have find a work first. as it wld be quite troublesome. stubborn.
&im doing all ths not fo revenge, boy. pls read tha previous post. &you may clarify eur doubts. let me get this straight. izhar& i are nth more friends. his intention of askn fo my number is merely making friends. im being faithful here. i dontknow how to bring across tha message to you. tt explains why i kept tha textes from him. &pls stop claiming tt eur just a mere boyf to me. tt is fo me to judge.
dont give up on me. im part of eur life.

damn ah, f

2009-03-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

damn ah(!!)
i dont feel well. i had sth like rashes on almost on my whole body, its itchy. left eye is swollen. how tha hell am i gg to skol with this state? i dont want to miss my lesson. it would add on to tha confuseness of my studies. i need help, like seriously. fcuk this thing ah. idontlike. sht asses. i do want to go to skol tomorow ah. geesh.
boyf broke his cellphone into half. im to be blamed. yess. due to tt, i wont be able to contact him. nice one.
p/s: i need to clean up& be cured((:

spice up my life ah

2009-03-06T21:33:00.000+08:00

oohhh ddeeaarr (!!)
syawal confessed he admires me. sht asses. ever since tha first he saw me at skol. wait. perhaps tts one of tha boys's common attitude. hees. idontknow shld i or shldnt i trust him. haha. leave it larr. hope he doensnt belong to tt particular group of boys. i will address you boys as boys. cos i feel like you people havent mature enough. hahaha. probably syawal could be my good friend after all. haha. but i donknow him tt well yet. dpends.
boyf is busy with work. sht. he couldnt meet me ah last minute. ggrr. imisshim like alot ah. we fought alot this week. &yes, im part to be blame. note tha word part. ****** was so ass ah during recess. throwing harsh words at me. stop boasting arnd tt eur grade 5 ah babe. thrs totally no point of it ah if you didnt teach those who want to learn can. like sombong ah. alamak. but well, i still loveyou((: as you spice up my life.
hahahahahahahahah

big, fat quarrel

2009-03-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

boyf& i had a big fat quarrel upon learning i gave my number randomly to izhar. yes, im here to be blame. i admit. he shld understand tt izhar& i were nth more than friends. besides, i stated at my previous post tt his a lil bit dull. (sorry) thrfore, why shld i engaged in a relationship which is so dull& no entertainment. &not to remind you tt hes a malay-_-
all because fo one reason.
i need adventure to spice up my life story. i dont want need to be dull. life is short, enjoy it to tha fullest. bue ey boy, im not betraying eur trust or whtsoeva. i didnt menggatal with him okay. &yes, i want to fork out tha truth. different people with their different personalities& attitude. i like tt, you'll know.

handsome/cute guys are meant to be friends((:

2009-03-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

oh well, i gave my permission fo syawal to pass my number to izhar. his friend who serve tha hot choc. boyf is not aware of this. i wld tell him sometime later, &tt is when i meet up with him. frankly, syawal is okkay, fo a friend. more than tt, fo e.g in the terms of good/best friend, no. i find him pretty dull. sorry, but ya. he dont really know how to start a conversation or perhaps treat grls. he's shy, i guess. (claimed yana) or most probably, i dont really know him as we never chill out together. i dont really want to jump into conclusions. but yeah, tts how i feel. started texting izhar like today. hes okkay, practically tha same as syawal. hmm.
are all guys tha same?
&guess wht? i owed both salihin&syawal an outing. haha.
i hoped boyf is okay with it. well, he's lil disappointed upon learning tt i want to go out with salihin sometime ltr but he allowed me((: besides, he's not aware of syawal&izhar thingy. haha.i hoped he doesn't read this.
bitch, i need friends.

totally fun(:

2009-03-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

27.o2.o9
wwweee~~
shopping spree with balqys&fidiana. we bought tons of clothes, especially from cotton on. &fidiana could not stop blabbering how much she preferred cck cotton on. wait. its not blabbering. well, tts her view. i spent fo like almost 1oo. its worth it though. &&i bumped into syawal, yana's cousin. *pathetic. idontlike. he noticed me since fidiana&i was like gg through the menu. he tegor. but i walked passed him without taking a look at him. yes, im arrogant. especially to malay boys. my standard is pretty high fo them. *flips hair.
28.o2.o9
met boyf&friends at 7 plus as it was raining heavily accompanied by thunder&lightning at my place. obviously, i dont have tha guts to go out. we planned to ton at sentosa. but thanks to the weather, our plan cock up. slack till arnd 4 in tha morning in front of naim's house without entering as he was under tagging& his dad locked tha gate. (urh!) drink baron with boyf, naim, fa'as, amirul& with this particular guy which i didnt happen to catch his name. slept at boyf's crib. i was nervous&i was half asleep as i wasnt use to it. jie came home. she was so damn dead f sweet. she pulled tha blanket lovingly over me even though she was tired. i thanked her. her replied was 'nvm. grls outside have to sleep like tt.' i didnt expect tt from her as she was tha ah-lian type((:
sayang jie.
heheh.
yes, i love my boyf too

cool (:

2009-02-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
-Marilyn Monroe

this is like so cool (!!) hehs. woo~ (duh!!) nth to do. doing shopping with balqys& fidiana tomorow. oh gees. heheh. cant wait((:

grlfs((x

2009-02-23T14:51:00.001+08:00

as stated above((:
spent my friday which is on tha 20 feb with angel, hui ling, foong sze, rena& magdeline. seesha-ing at haji lane. 2 police cars& motorbikes were petrolling tha place. since we were under 18, so ya. haha. drink-drank-drunk heineken. thrs no effect lorr:( but hui ling was like so so drunk. she needs support when she walked& kept vomitting. gaga. (kecoh babe)
reached home 2 plus. boyf was mad. well, lets say this is sort of revenge((x

i want it

2009-02-19T16:42:00.000+08:00

tha weather is increasing hhott (!!)
cant bare it.
heheh.
p/s i want a lawyer as a friend((:

oh yeah. i said tt i was gg to elaborate on sth on my previous previous post right.
this is wht happen.
mom was in a rush to go out when i stepped in tha house. i chose to follow her as thrs nth to do at home at 12 plus. she said sth on finding a public phone, she doesnt want the particular person to track her down. i was curious. she dialled in tha number & started on a conversation with an accent & sarcartism. i knew thrs sth serious gg on. she wont really uses her accent unless thrs sth important.
bla. bla. bla.
(after tha phone call)
i found out tt yayi, whos dating nek uteh fo so so many years since i was a baby, had a family. (cb) &now tha daughter accused my mom for having an affair with her father. my mom had been contacting him for a week as she wants to seek the truth out of him. btw, hes very gatal. kept teasing or perhaps flirting with mom. (fcuk) my dad is not aware of this flirting thing gg on, obviously. tha family members of this shamless, disgusted yayi were all throwing harsh words to my mom. tha wife of his even swore tt my mom wont leave in peace. (sht them) they didnt even know tha truth lorr. they assumed tt my mom was having an affair with tt bloody, bastard yayi (!!) i pity nek uteh. she knew yayi for like most of her life&shes not aware tt he had a family:(
guys are not to be trusted, bare tt in mind.

i really do, boy

2009-02-16T19:17:00.001+08:00

i miss boyf.
i really do.
sorry ah fo everything.
heh((x

14 febuary 2oo9

2009-02-16T14:50:00.000+08:00

take away large cheesy lava pepperoni, 10 drumlets, 6 wings, lasagne& starry muchies((:
wwoo~~
gerek sia. hahaha. went to labrador park (!!) picnik. haha. i brought along tika, pillow suk. heheh.
FUN(!) FUN(!) FUN(!)
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
reach home arnd 12 plus&tts whr all tha complication begins.
elaborate more bout it later.
heheh

loossen up

2009-02-10T21:42:00.000+08:00

haha. okay((:
well. i think i shld take it lightly. like (duh?) colours reflects eur character. &yellow presents dont take things seriously. must be tha o-levels pressure larr. tts why im all tense up. fcuk. well perhaps, choir is my thing. well, i like music (almost anyone&evryone does) but im more into dancing. like ya, dancing. hardcore. hahahahhaa. yyeess, tts my thing. haha. i so missed those times whr we just dance so randomly&seductively. haha. yeah. tts it(: tt explains why itsperfect. everything happens for a reason. tts so true.
thank you, my grls((x
loveyou loads. gaga. &idont pilih kasih sayang okkay, like sarah did.
hahahaha

i do SUCKS

2009-02-10T19:14:00.000+08:00

pretend as if its all alright. i dont really like expressing my feelings to my family members, ya know.

CHOIR

sucks. to be precise, tha audition. i was cleared during tha first round. but i cldnt do it tha second round. i just cldnt. i was so damn dead nervous. i broke down. yes, in front of all tha altos. people pls. am i tt stupid or dumb tt i just cldnt repeat wht i had just sang. this particular thing was getting on my nerves. im angry at myself. i fell sorry myself. idontknow. i need a break out. all i want to do now is to dance&drink all night. i really do. im so under pressure. geesh. i felt like giving it all up. seriously, i do. cos i just cant do it:(

balqys lost her shoes. dontknow which idiot took her shoes. ass.

i really hope i cld calm myself down. i really need to. pplleeaasssee.

i cant do it

2009-02-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

look *minah-rep sia here. URH.

sunday, 8th febuary 2oo9.

haha. went to kak ayu's crib after work. work SUCKS. i was tha only employee in tha morning. geesh. was so dead tired&so an ice lemon tea went drrooppp while i was clearing tha table. grr. watched BIG STAN&karaoke thr(: while boyf playing soccer wwith cik botak. *just realise tt my voice actually sucks during karaoke-_- heheh. nth surprising. gah. makan thr also.

well, left at 8.40. took 186 home. wow (!!) we both actually board tha bus for free. as tha ez-link tapping was out-of-service. everyone board tha bus for free((: then got this nyonya board tha bus ah. she board tha bus out of nowhr sia. tha bus driver close tha door accidentally&so, tha door hit tha leg ah. wah. super chaotic man. tha nyonya was throwing harsh words at her in chinese. then got this one point, she went to tha driver's seat&tonjol her body sia. bloody sht right. wah. chaotic (!!) hmm. tha bus stooped at queenstown MRT&ask all of us to alight it. it was actually 2 bus stops away frm my home sia. waliao. boyf&i decided to walk.

&&we actually did took alot of photos. heheh.

ive got a lot of things on mind.

-tighten&shortening skert

-returning my malay book which dues today

-pay my skol fees

Monday, 9th febuary 2oo9

went far east. accompany foong sze to buy her tongue stud with angel, rena, hui ling&xiao hui. haha. makan at KFC. wah. tha service was so like damn low lorr. tha place was full of flies.*eeww rena&i have like waited for 15 minutes to await our delicious MELTZ. tha place was hawt, squeeezy. urh. fyi, we were force to eat at KFC. so budget sia. im not looking on it or whtsoever. but they shld at least build a much more bigger restaurant. took 111 home with rena. bitch man (!!) i rally hate to get on crowded bus. i have to like squeeze betwenn smelly&all kinds of people. much more worse then gg to work. tha adults was like pushing me here&thr sia. wah. im so pissed off. thr were like ths two inconsiderate singaporeans. cb.

&yes, not to remind you tt thrs a big possibility tt ive got an audition tomorow. im so dead afraid. hmm. you could see me dropping a few tears just fo it. (duh?) i just cant do it.

sorry:((

2009-02-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

zzzz. fresh lei((: work up from 4 hrs of sleep. refreshing man. gaga.

well, thrs pretty much things happen during choir. ive only got 3 hrs of sleep (!!) urh. &tt explains why im so like tha BLUR ah. dilia kept laughing at my stupidity. seriously larr. i dint realise tt i was actually (scratching) eur leg (?) haiyo. kecoh sia. &i also didnt realise tt dinika threw a sweet wrapper at my HAIR. fcuking shit ah her. i shld have notice (!) cos yes, its my HAIR. dont have me to remind you tt my hair is so much precious again.

sorry ah grlfriends fo not accompanying sarah, balqys&dilia to tiong bahru & you which concists of angel, hui ling, rena&foong sze to tha event. my apologies. my energy is draining. &yes, i really need those pills. urh.

*will upload tha pictures tt i took with sarah in toilet soon. hehs

i know larr okay

2009-02-05T21:20:00.000+08:00

wah. wht sseyy. asshole sah my boyf (!!) ya lahh. not picking up my phone calls. bitch sia. heheh. cos i go home late mah. but. urh. pls. its considered early kay. compared to you. 3 plus then reach home. ah la mak. deng! urh. *so so roll eyes. its eur choice of not picking up alright(: like (duh) my credit is low&im skoling. tt means eur unable to contact me((: serves you right ah. so sombong. call you didnt pick up. ehk, im not tha one you want to merajuk with kay. gaga. im like so tha MOST PATHETIC GRLF EVER x) so wht? why do you even chose to be with me?

hang out with angel, rena, xiao hui&hui ling after skol. wah. wwee~~ shiok man (!!)
juicy gossips, facts, laughters&& urh. lost of words.
hahahahhahahahahaahha

pile of dunk. zzzeeeee. -_-

dontknow

2009-02-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

hahaha.
wweee~~ feel like saying wwee. so ya. i have tha right to type craps here ya(: heheh.
dontknow whts wrong with me. thr wld be this period of time whr im okay&thrs a time when im dont. &tha okay, im refering to temperature. hmm. maybe its due to tha not finishing my anti-biotics. bullshit! eee. a pile of dunk(: gaga. cool!

i seriously wants&need to excel in all my language but idk how. im asking ms siti fo help now, tts fo english. im reading a nove fo malay. maths need loads of practise. hmm. &yes, i have insufficient time (!!) urh. its either i reacheed home late or im to exhausted till my whole body ache:( ive asked mom to buy this pill fo energy boost, like she used to. cos seriously, i need it. it started again. haiyo. i need explainations on this. i ate vegetables but why does thiss occur? haiyo. ah lah amak.

&&ya, pathetic sah just now her face. she gave me tt idiotic face. URH. its like so damn pathetic lorr. it doesnt suits you. okay. enought. she doesnt deserve my attention
:DD

changing:DD

2009-02-01T19:40:00.000+08:00

geesh.
changing my blog url(: haha. &its open to all IDs.

not feeling quite well these few days:( had a MC fo three days &yes, it covers fo work too. *two thumbs up. heesh. went toning with boyf, dewi&fir at ecp. haha. gerek oi. even though tha tent is small, we survived it. gah. haha.

so so love my life.
wants to change.
hahahahhahhahhahhaha.

gotto boy

2009-01-29T16:43:00.000+08:00

&yes, ive gotto manage my time. urh. dont feel like working fo this week. shld put all my attention to my dear dear studies, esp my language&tt includes malay too. well, you see. im not good in my both english&malay. gaga. so yeah. haha.
&&i shldnt go out tt frequently. but oh boy, i want to come to sheesha this saturday. i dont want it all go down to tha drain. hmm. haha.
school? well. ive picked up my courage, not practically all to ask ms siti fo extra tasks to improve my comprehension, ya know. i always get confused with tha questions. cos well. i dont understand tha questions you see. haha. ive started to read malay novels/cerpen; idontknow wht they call them. but ya. haha. but dont really have tha time fo it. hmms.

thank you(:

2009-01-24T19:00:00.001+08:00

would be editing my blog sssooonnn~~
haha.
patience is needed. thank you(:
gah.

duh

2009-01-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

hah. &wht wht a day to be starting with. gees. otw to akol & took tha usual route to MRT. saw these two mat-reps, i shld call them. *roll eyes. urh. heard one of them which is ssoo black said "muke mcm pukimak sia." urh. ya, was pissed off at first. but nehh. give it a tght of it for a sec. i shldnt give them my attention, its not like they dserve it or sth. duh. gaga. forgive&forget. cos i used to be like them. note of tha word used. but tt was a long (..) time ago, last two years. hello? tt particular guy was like way olader than me. well. n ot really way. but still (...) perhaps 17, 18? i understand tt guys mature slower than guys. give me a break, pls. you shld all be matured by now((:

anwy, had a really good&fun today. usual laugh with partner. &ya, today is like im so so totally ignored her. cant believe it. cos usually i wld be bother my her presence. but nehh. grls like her, well, (.....) fill up tha blanks. gah. leart a phrase from angel. :D 'a piece of dump' she&her piece. non-stop. gah-hahahahhah.

THE END. THANK YOU. LOVEYOU ALL PEOPLE.

at last

2009-01-21T15:48:00.000+08:00

&yes. at last(:
i got hold of tha comp. with all tha skoling, working, revising&obviously homeworks. no, i dont really have time fo all ths. not fo now. skols has been better(: dont bother of wht is happening arnd me especially tha bad ones. haha. still not talking to her. angel is so bein gtha sweet, crazy&assholic grlf in class. &yes, she sits right bside me. hahahhaha. with al the hard, loud laughing frm us. i learn tt chinese dont talk bhind friends back. im surpsire. i assumed tt all grls are like tt. but no, they prove me wrong. gaga.

girls, thank you(:

2009-01-05T15:18:00.000+08:00

&i hope you, well. shld i call you friends? would read this.

thanks fo bitching about me(: like seriously thank you. cos now then i realised who were my true friends really were. you guys really hated me dont you? &you expect me to take it lightly regarding friends mom. but pls. how do you feel when you were in my shoes? even though it was last year. but pls. you kept it from me. close friend's mom blamed YOU fo friend's wearing skimpy clothes. how do you feel? when you&friend's mom were close? urh. puh-lease.
imagine. my mom blamed you fo me wearing skimpy clothes. as tha matter of fact tt you shose to dressed tt way && you&mom were close.

&ya, i dont admit when im in tha wrong. but pls. eur sensitive. how do you expect me to just say it right straight to eur face. 'youve got ...... now. you spent more time with her compared to me. all those, wht we usually do. you spent it with her.' how do you think i feel grl? after i lose a friend, i need eur support. &this is wht i got fo a reply. whteva ya do, you do it with her. &im just a part-time friend. pls grl. hear me out.

now then i realised tt you actually dislike my BLOODY attitude(: haha. well. im not gg to drop a tear on this. cos ey. you FRIENDS made me realised how dreadful am i to you. i appreaciate tt im in different class with you now. we are gg to our separate ways sooner or later. so ya. gotto get used to it.

thank you fo everything, grls.

hmm.

2009-01-04T19:03:00.000+08:00

hmm.
had an argument with bf in tha morning fo like 12, 1? im not sure ey. its eefing difficult fo me to adapt to this environment, no gg bck home at tha middle of tha night, tonning&oftenly gg out. i cant. its difficult to change a habit.
&not to mention after losing a friend. ya. you shld know who. &i feel quite a loser. bf neither text nor call me. hmm. so ya.
the end.
baby, im so sorry fo wht i have just say to you. &ya, i didnt know i cry so badly. urh. im sincerely apologise fo evrything ya. oh boy. iloveyou, *pls. i mean it.

surprisingly.

2009-01-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

well. ive gotto to iron my uniform, sing tha national anthem& recite tha pledge every morning which proves me tt im still a student. a student of hss. first day of skol, went to skol. everything went fine unlike last year. haha. hairs okay(: *thumbs up fo me people. hah. im still in 4e2. hmm. well. tha class is okay okay. haha. but at least ive got angel behind my back. haha. well not actually behind my back but shes sitting beside me. haha.

hmm. set up my mind tt im gg cincentrate on my o levels. insyaalah. no problems. haha. &ya, i didnt talk to friend at skol. shtasses you dlia&surya. placed a bet on me see i can tahan or not. haha. can ah. im really pissed off&ya i didnt cry so teruk about this matter surprising. i know. *kening naik kan. haha. cos i dont want to waste mytears just like tt. besides, dont want to cry fo ppl who doesnt appreaciate you.

baby, imissyou larr.

please.

2008-12-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

i need answers frm you people.
read previous post. sent friend a message. sge texted me saying tt how is she gg to tell me about evrything when i kept telling paul&surya when she asked me to keep it a secret. i replied grl, ive got nth to say. we all care fo you&you kept repeating it. told surya. surya gave up. shes not gg to bother bout her anymore. hmm. idontknow larr.
think.
im tha one tt always called you up before&after work just to check up on you. you wont make tha phonecalls. i wld always be tha one waiting fo you. while waiting fo so long, i called&texted you. you wont reply. &you wld give me a dozens of excuses. eur good at it. but eur not good at lying. now mom blamed me fo you wearing skimpy clothes. &tha whole block knows it. now, you texted me saying tt? how wld i feel? am i just a shit to eur life? which you dont need it in eur life. but well all i have to say is. thanks fo evrything fo these&tt. i really appreaciate it though. when eur thr on my birthday. hmm. &ya, got to tell you tt eur a friend fo enjoyment not for sorrow. *if you get wht i mean.
pls people. ineed answers.

fuck it.

2008-12-29T19:01:00.000+08:00

cuurently listening to fuck it by eamon.

well. received news from dilia. lets be specific wiil ya? bad news. get it. bad news. hmm. true friend had a talk to friend's(insert name) mom. friends mom blamed me fo friends wearing skimpy clothes. &she told her neighbours&friends bout it. this friend of mine is closed to me. shes tha type of friend to enjoy, not fo sorrow. i shld have known. surya warned me. but hey. tts tha thing about me. i love my grlfs. i can live w/o bf. but gfs. urh. no way. i cant. im confused now. wht shld i do? &ya, got to know tt friend had not been truthful to me. she didnt tell me wht exactly happen between her&bf. im not being a busybody or sth. but do you know how much i care fo you gls? even though i dont show. you know me. ill be waiting.
p/s: surya. i need to talk to you. i know you have been calling me these few days to tell me all these. sorry fo not answering. working. sorry baby. forgive me.

sentosa(:

2008-12-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

psss. just got bck frm sentosa&henderson wave. hah. tha weather was fcuking hawt. ggrr. &ya, ler tha pictures do tha talking. im too lazy to type everything. one thing fo sure, had fcuking wonderful time thr(: with well, tha drinking&stuffs. phew. enjoy(:

ps: while waiting fo fir, dewi&bf, took some pictures.

haha.

definite it to me, people.

2008-12-24T13:17:00.000+08:00

life. whts life? pls. definite it to me. its full ups&downs. im glad it has done cos my, life wld be dead without it.
bf is really pissed off with me fo not texting&calling him before i went to malaysia. but pls. ive got to take care of MATIN, he kept running here&thr. its usual fo a 2 year old toddler. reached malaysia, fcuking phone had no reception. boy, tts nth surprising. but pls, i really need tt reception to contact you. &ya, sht. thrs 2 or 3 chinese guys shared tha same resemblance as you . my. urh. but you didnt give me tha chance to explain. you assumed tt i was enjoying with sti. true. but do you ever know how i often i think about you?
&now, you told me to spend christmas&last day of tha year without you. wow. cool! it wld be more satisfied if we bcome solo right. a good reason of why not spending time with each other. &you also texted me tt i treat eur love as bullsht. so, why do you still hang on to it? pls. lets be rational. think. i know im such a bitch to you. but why? why do you still hang on to it? ya. i treat eur love as bullsht wht. hmm. tts wht you say. but you dontknow how my heart beats fo you.
bye.
sincerelove,
JURIANI.

quite.

2008-12-19T18:53:00.000+08:00

ya, well. everything went quite well yesterday(: &ya, quite. except fo tha first part. he, ashri gave m etha cold shoulder:( hmms. ady talked to me. he seems not happy. obviously, he shld. he showed me how bf walked. f larr. bf pon deng! gah. ady kept asking me whether bf fetching me or not. cos hes afraid tt bf wld find ashri. jauries is now being a bitch. i realized tt he starting to dislike me&paul. pathetic. siti asking him whether hes toning with us on tha 27.
&this i swht he replied. 'no ah, no moog they all got' siti asked 'whos them?' he replied 'jurinai&paul ah' fcuk. idontknow whts up gg on with him. most probably hes not happy cos siti usually spends time with him&not spending time with him. haiz. guys.

ass cecilia. shes one f MF. she told siti not to take order&laura indirectly asked siti to do tha washing. wah. shes new. &you ppl asked her to do washing. bloody shits!

i need help.

2008-12-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

oh. hmms. first is first. idontknow how tha hell am i gg to finish my fcuking homework. second, how am i gg to revise with events coming up. third, tomorow.

well. let me sum up all wht happened yesterday. bf waited fo me. farhana&i were late (as per usual). so, he checked us up at tha ladies. we werent thr. he saw jauries, which is farhana bf. they talked. ady&ashri is with jauries. both of them stared bf. bla. bla. bf waited fo me outside lp&saw them again. they stared at each other. farhana&i came out. met bf. walked towards tha mrt. saw them again. jauries&farhana stared at each other. ashri stared at farhana. bf walked. ady stared. &ya, which i forgot to mention tt ady is my supervisor at work. fcuk, i know. i found out tha real reason why the first started staring at bf cos they dont like tha way bf walk, like mat rep ah. which hes totally not.

now mcm siak. ady, my supervisor wants to talk to me about this tomorow. urh. how am i gg to work. i wld feel so damn awkward. bf wants to talk to them on sunday. both parties which include bf&ady deng(!) im like hello? bf wants to carik pasal with my colleague&my supervisor. ady wants to carik pasal with my bf. tt means im tha middle person. &ihateit. imagine. ady starting not to like me. he cld pick up on me which hes allowed to as hes my supervisor. how? im confused. help.

childish(:

2008-12-07T01:23:00.001+08:00

ilovemy boyfriend(:
:DDD

sorry fo tha late post.

2008-12-02T09:51:00.000+08:00

hahahahahha. its been like so so long since i last post. work, homework&shits. haha. loads of things happen, imustsay. both good&bad.
hmms. she(i wont mention names here ya) kept pestering me to have tha talk, which i dont have tha mood to. sorry. but you dont understand how i feel. tha only thing you can say to me is 'shut up' & 'dont talk like tt' im trying to pour my heart out. &tts wht i got fo eur reply. nice(: okkay done, next.
i was sent home on my first day of camp. shit. i was not feeling well. but pls. i want to spend one night with my grls, at least. shitto!
evrything went fine. haha. work? hmms. well. thrs ups&downs & i manage to pull it through. gaga. with demanding customers&full house. boring managers, well. boring, tts not tha word. pathetic, i meant. whts more? hahah. okkay. set ah.
&ya, my time slots with farhana(ppl know tt i work with her) are different now. kinda happy. well. idk. i was supposingly not to hang out with tha grls too much. cos of some reasons. &one of them is tt they do not need me. i wldnt want to stick arnd thr. gaga. okkay. bye!

enough of it.

2008-11-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

well. tts. tts. enough oh it people. pls. im here trying my best to help you but you were just being straight forward. i can accept tha fact tt you were being straoght forward. but hey, ade tempat ah babe. alright. you can blame me for im tha type of person i dont show when i care. but yu dont have to throw harsh words which is not TRUE to me. you were being unreasonable girl. i cried fo my gfs&things tt have happen back in my past with him. hah. &ya, why do you always have to bring me&surya in tha subject? why? you said as if im no used to you. am i ? hmms. well. hmms. ive made up my mind. im going to be apart frm you since you were trying to say tt im no use to you when you were sharing eur problems with. thrs others who need you&love you more tha way i did. hehs(: &you are their first priority. gaga. good luck gf. bbyyee. iloveyou.

in BOLD.

2008-11-12T14:57:00.001+08:00

a picture speaks a thousand words, but does it tell tha whole storey? &tt is wht im curious about. so, let the pictures do the talking. but not the whole storey. haha. have loads of fun, fun, fun with gfs&bfs. haha. syaheed&balqys is extremely f noisy. fidian&bf gone for like almost 3 hours. hahaha. how cool is tt? hees. hawt siot. bla. bla.
11.11.o8
FAILED. i cant. i cant do it. im brave you know*chey, but when it comes to this, i cant. seriously, i cant. i failed. i cry after tha try out. i was like so scared, nervous&i just wished tt tha earth underneath me wld spilt up&swallow me up. but NO, it doesnt happen. i gotto face the reality. fcuk. this is much more worser than i facing my greatest fear, hahahahah. not actually greatest. gees. hmms. i cant. i think tt if i was to keep on trying, i wld still fail. full stop.
p/s i dont want to talk about it. thank you.

so so long

2008-11-04T23:56:00.000+08:00

haha. its been like so so long since i last wear jeans. haha. cos its hawt. so my straight-cut jeans wld be ending up 3/4. haha. had an argument with mom. met up with dina&sister. &off we went to chinese garden. the we, i meant was farhana&i. its also been so so long since we last had the grls talk like we usually used to when we were way way back single. haha. &oh. i damn fcuking missed those old times. we talked alot. regarding guys, both our bfs, grlfs, us &the future we wld be leading. phew. we planned to go to chinese garden. so i asked farhana to bring along a tika. haha. i laid down,as per usual. panas dok. haha. &smoked. &drinked. &eat. the typical us. haha.
farhana confessed tt she wldnt be able to last long with bf. cos of some reasons. hmms. but yar. understand her. just wish her luck ah.
stuffs happened bck at malaysia. so so sacarstic. haha. i dont need tt, ppl . i know how to lead my own life.
&haha. im weird, iknow. i actually have been waiting for our relationship, in like me&bf have some arguments, like we used to. haha. bf, i missed you. hah. cos for my perception, my lo0ve wld be growing alot more if we were having arguments. cos ey, relationship wld be dull&boring if we wldnt have arguments. so so plain. haha. yyeess, you make throw wrds at me. but this is my say, my blog. hmms. so yar. hmms.
p/s i love PAUL TAN BAO ER alot alot!

true friends

2008-10-29T12:30:00.000+08:00

hey friends or whatsoever .
am i a piece of dirt to you or sth ? cos if i am . please kindly tell me . hmms . well . let me definite the word dirt . its any foul or filthy substance, as mud, grime, dust, or excrement . obviously people wldnt want it arnd us . so yeahs .
& ill make it clear here .
TRUE FRIENDS dont keep anything from each other . unless you dont regard as one , right ?
* i really really want ot learn how to appreaciate people arnd me . im trying to apply that attitude in me . cos . well . peole come&go .
ADIOS !

ditched .

2008-10-23T20:39:00.000+08:00

urh . got . believe it or not . i got ditched 2 TIMES ! inone day siot . &shes younger than me by months . shit or what . hmms . she said she was going shopping with her cousin . &yyeess . we believed her . haha . she got ditched by that girl . so she met us instead . wah . how disappointed am i . i remembered her saying she dont like that particular grl . so why the hell you going out with her . &you lied to us cos of her . whats so good about her ? wah . you made me feel useless grl . hmms . thanks alot .
we ; farhana , her &i went to far reast to meet up with her best friend . hmms . we felt guilty-conscious as they followed us every whr we go . so , i asked her to walk2 first . later we meet up HERE again ! after we shopped for farhanas stuffs , we called her . &little did i know that she was at SOMERSET ! wow . she didnt even text us . wah . what a friend . thanks again , friend . iloveyou .

things .

2008-10-20T14:50:00.000+08:00

phew . its been quite a while since i last post . hahaha . was busy ey . & alot of things have happen i must say . dman alot . quarrel with farhana , surya , boyfriend & mom in two days . imagine that . haha . & theres these two malaysian guys , i guess kept disturbing me in the most ultimately uncomfortable & disturbing way . fcuk . i cried in the public . i was so scared . i was still trembling when i met up with boyfriend . hmms . & tks for making me feel safe . haha .

went out alot alot of times this time . haha . & yeahs . good news . haha . my bridging end on the 31.0ct . haha . good or what . but hey , im afraid for next year . haha . not prepared . better be . hmms . going to cut down time both with gfs & bf . haha . sedih . both tao . hmms . patient ey .

luck or what ?

2008-10-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

wwee ~ i passed 4 subjests including english . (: haha . luck or what ? hmms . oh . norita wasnt supposed to show us the results but well , we were desperate . had a girls talk with farhana . & i told her that if i dapat naik , insyaallah . i am seriously going to concentrate on my studies . hellos ? it would been less than a year for my o's . hmms . would decrease my outings & stuffs . hmms . cutting down times spending out outside . takot siot aku . haiyos .

jauries wanted to bring farhana out on her birthday & its before 6 . he asked farhana to hang out with us after 6 . im like hey , hellos . knock knock . dilia cant be home after 6 . she has a curfew , remember . sedih sia . hmms . imagine . one of eur true friends birthday , as a matter of fact , celebrated once a year . we cant be with her on that special day . hmms .

oh well .

2008-10-10T20:39:00.000+08:00

oh well . checking papers today . phew . bad news . oh well . got a high chance of retaining or dropping to NA . haiyos . but well . positive side . im not prepared for my o's next year . but well . haiz . ass .

and yyess . he contact me . (: hes fine now . i guess . haha . started work today .

trouble .

2008-10-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

so . yeahs . after all that . gotto go out . & do stuffs . hmms . shit asses . we brought along everything unlike last time ( haha ) . credits goes to iszuan for buying for us the drinks & cigarettes plus sending us to farhanas blk . hmms . but ey , things werent enough . guess what ? by only 11 , to our dismay , drinks had finished . shit .
&yeahs . i was only with farhana at sentosa , pahlawan beach . imagine that . haha . two girls , one is not legally 15 ( haha ) , by the beach . phew . theres lots of blangahs & tamils . ass . seram siot . called up boyfriend to the rescue . hmms . i wasnt suppose to force him . hmms . & also asked him to bring chivas too .
we talked shit . totally shit . haha . & yeahs . farhana & i took horny pictures . haha . boyfriend & i ..... tings turned out bad . haha . there were loads of marks at my neck . phew . things turned the other way round . bla . bla . bla . boyfriend & mummy argued . & yyess . i feeled so damn guilty . i was the one to blame for everything . maaf baby . sorry . seriously . hmms . worried for you now . can you please contact me ? pplleeaassse .

went out with farhana , dilia , aliffi & this guy which i didnt get his name went to vivo . haha . non-stop talking about horny stuffs . as per usual . haha . but ey , i am still worried . theres so loads of things going through my mind . call me .

to whom may concerned .

2008-10-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

hmms . problems . difficulties . & obstacles in life . hmms .
* this applies it to you , dog .
why must you tell to eur friends about us ? hellos . its the past ey . & i did remembered very well that you didnt tell about eur ex to eur friends .
* this applies to you , boy .
boy . hey . sorry . i have never been there for you when you need me . i now then realized that im not a good sister after all . i am so so sorry . but ey , why must you do all this ? to me , & hey . think . to mama ? boy . please . i remember eur words . you do not want to touch all those stuffs cos you know how we suffered cos of dad . or whatsoever , i must say . & whr does all this go , huh ? i am so so sorry boy . i didnt appreciate you before . but please , think of mama .

i was wrong .

2008-10-03T14:55:00.000+08:00

hees . thought it was okay . okay for everyone . okay for everything . but i was wrong . wrong again . she just put down my phone call . well , it wasnt on purpose . she was in a rush . but pls , some basic courtesy . i was wrong . maybe i shouldnt have .

&& well . i left out 73 marks for my A MATHS paper . congrats to me .

girls gone bad .

2008-09-24T17:24:00.000+08:00

let the pictures do the talking . haha . && yyeesss . these days have been my most idiotic & stupidest moment . haha . clumsy , needlees to say . haha . amazing !

sentosa outing .

2008-09-20T23:21:00.000+08:00

haha . having mu menstruation . so cant puase . have my reasons akay . not suke suke tak nak puase . went to sentosa with farhana , surya , kartini , balqys , dilia and dinika to celebrate sarahs belated 13th birthday . haha . best oi . ketawe non stop babe . haha . oh . went to have dinner at vivo . ate long john silver . & this random short guy asked dinika oue number . eeeww ! haha . ty dinika . she said i was attached & turned away , ignoring him . gahahahah .

& my one month with my perfek cinesesat boyfriend went to imm then esp roof top . haha . best oi . hahaa , talk alot of stuffs . haha . being me . gees .

:DDD

iloveyou , boyfriend .

mmuuaaahhhsss .

dont wish to talk .

2008-09-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

hmms . & god . was feeling down today . we were supposed to celebrate sarahs birthday at vivo . but due to skooling days and stuffs ( for which i cant reveal it here ) , its all cancelled . & i guess balqys is disappointed in me . sorry baby . i dont feel like talking to anyone for now . hmms . and someone shot me sarcastic phrase which made me feel more worse than before . haiyos . but well . patience . puase ey . loads of challenges . haha . and i went back with FIDIANA ! haha .

obstacles in life , i have to say .

2008-09-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

and yyeeess . so damn tired . god . reached home at 12 plus yesterday . haha . bus da bis arhs babe . nak tak nak naik taxi . gahaas . oh . went to town , geylang and vivo with boyfriend , kechik , dewi and fir . hees . they're both such such a cute couple i must say . (: hees . before that , things happen . bad bad things . MATIN . fuck sia his father . cb . sot siot . nasib baik die anta alek . if not . phew . lets see larhs ehk . hmms . things happen during the month of ramadhan and my final year is arnd the corner oi . gees . obstacles in life , i have to say .

jies birthday .

2008-09-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

haha . went to east coast to barbeque for jies birthday . i so cant believe it that we , farhana , paul and jauries walked from macdonald all the way to station g . phew . and it was the last pit . haha . the funny thing was that i didnt feel that exhausted which i was supposingly to feel . haha . farhana and jauries was like dragging their feets behind us . they sure walked so slow . haha .

hmms . oh well . got to tell him the truth right . so yeahs . i did it . i told him with so much difficulty . but yeahs . he accepted me which was surprising . and he told me to forget about it . that was what i was trying to do for the past 8 months . hmms . anyway since the bus stop was very very far from the pit . it took 2 hours to reach there . so yeahs . i torn . farhana and jauries went back home half way . they took a cab . haha . had loads of fun over there . haha . laugh , carik pasal with boyfriend ( the normal things when we meet up ) . hahah .

and yyeeesss . ilovehim . cos . haha . guess what ? boyfriend massaaakk . huggeedd me . hahaha . when i was like so damn cos it was like raining . teman to toilet . tompang basikal for a long long ride oi (saket sak pantat ) . lend his wooo comfortable shoulder to lean on tii his neck aches . haha . padan muke . coverede my hair when it was raining . cos well . sensitive oi aku . and yyeesss . even thoygh hes all exhausted due to the cycling and not sleeping , he still sent me home oi . hhaaa .

PAUL TAN BAO ER , JURIANI TAN AI TING cinta kamu oi . haha . you pendek . and yyeesss . iloveyou more . dont sebok2 arhs busuk ! (:

stupid ey .

2008-09-11T17:29:00.000+08:00

hees . (: had so much laughter just now . oh well . thats it . haha . nehh . didnt know what to blog . gahaas .

pplleeaassee appreaciate ,

2008-09-10T20:57:00.000+08:00

hey . hmms . what was all this about ey . got to know that one of my closest friend (sorry , cant reveal his/her name) moms passed away . it was like all so sudden . am like hellos ? shes only 15 . and she had lived a great life even though her dad is not arnd , due to some reasons which i dont want to know , to take care of her . not to mention , shes very very close to her mom . she treats her mom more to a sister rather than a mother itself . and all her clothings and make ups for performance , her mom do it for her and she dont mind at all . and god . i must say . her mom has good taste . seriously . all her clothes are all adorable and preeetay .

so . now im wondering , how shes going to survive without her beloved mom . oh god . she grew up without her fathers love . hmms . shes damn smart , gorgeous and ey have a ssuuppeeerrr nice voice !! hhmms . so yeahs . and its like all of this haapen cos of her mom . so now , hows shes going to survive ey ? i dont want her to flick her studies and yeahs . so on .

so . people . pplleeeaassse appreaciate the people arnd you . people come and go . seriously . and im too applying that phrase to myself .

i need somebody . pplleeaase .

2008-09-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

gees . i had this f *** , weird feeling when im on my way to skol . and please let me inform you what time i turn in . i turn in practically around 1 plus in the morning as i couldnt sleep . and idk why mama woke everyone up at 3 to sahur . we usually sahur around 4 . kancong agak nyer die . haha . hmms . so after sahur , i get a few minutes of sleep . and went to shower ...

bla . bla . bla . so i went out at 6.25 to finish up my homework . and i had this weird , f***ing feeling inside me . i suddenly feel so f afraid , as if i cant defend myself or sth , which i actually can . i feel so terrified and so damn afraid when i gotto to know that someone walked behind me . ass .

hmms . finish skol at 3.40 . ty teacher for releasing us late as always . only that i forgot to acknowledge you . haha . and oh . when i was crossing the zebra crossing with balqys , theres this typical mat cycling . and ass . he looked at me , never want to take his eyes off me(in a bad way ey) and was smiling . shit sia . when he passed by , he said "sorry , klao terlanggar." i was like urh . felt like throwing at him nasty remarks like i usually do to typical guys . haha . but god . im fasting . patience is all .

hmms . got in the same bus with balqys . met up with different people which gave me that LOOK . ass . when balqys alighted the bus , a civil defence guy who looked like a total drug addict to me happened to sit in front of me . and well . this middle age guy who coloured his hair blonde , or sth turned and looked at me as if theres sth wrong with me . i so so prayed to reached my stop asap . i felt so so uncomfortable and afraid with all these .

and well , i know myself . i dont usually feel all afraid , scared and curious like this . and why is this all happening ? seriously , i know myself . and why do i get all this funny feeling now ?

hmms . and boy , you said your going to text me when eur up . but hey , im waiting for you . and not to mention , that you said i could find you at msn . but hellos ? whr are you ey .

perfect , cinesesat boyfriend .

2008-09-04T13:06:00.000+08:00

hees . loves . that particular picture on the top made by bus tickets . haha . and oh . MATIN baby dah baik ! yeesssa , best ! phew . how adorable sseyy . haha . blek !

and baby boy , PAUL . imissyou . seriously . missing you badly . hmms . and hold my words . i wont find other boys larhs . ive got you is more than enough . (: perfect cinesesat boyfriend .

ILOVEYOU .

wweee ~~

people come and go .

2008-08-31T09:37:00.000+08:00

gees . haha . woke up at 7 . meet boyfriend at outram arnd 1o . went off to chinese garden . lawa . lawa . then off to raffles marina . phgew . the scenery over there very nice siot . what a waate . cant get in . theres security . so went off to marina steps with zul , naim , dew and fir . haha .

fcuk . just reached the marina steps , dah kene tegur ngan budak siao . haha . ass .we walked alot . best ! the scenery also nice . gees . hmms . dah rembat , adr org kene tahan . hmms . zul was one of them . waliao .

hmms . bare this in mind . treasure every second and minute time spent with eur friends . walk life as if you its eur first time walking it . cos nothing is impossible . and god . people come and go .

imissmypendek .

2008-08-29T19:58:00.001+08:00

hees . best . best . went to vivo with gfs . haha . but ey , MATIN . my baby . oh god . hmms . so dissapointed in them . ass them sseyy . phew . haiz . and oh . didnt met up with PAUL for 2 days . haha . record oi ! haha .

imissmypendek .

ai ting , thats me . (:

2008-08-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

sorry . wont be blogging much . haha . been so so busy with skol stuffs , girlfriends and obviously PAUL ! haha . and oh . hes officially mine since the 17 . haha .

mentel . i know . shutup . haha . well . hes the most beautiful thing ever in earth . haha . what i am feeling now cant be describe in words . its beyond words . haha .

PAUL , iloveyou .

hes my pendek . baby boy . gala . pillow suk . boyfriend . cinta . robber . hero . PLUS ! loads loads more . haha .

alright . done ! haha . got to go . be ready for be eurself day tomorow ey . haha .

missyou people .